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so here we go. I'm 25, male and have VS. not all the symptoms but enough floating/moving crap in my eyes that i can't look at a white wall, green background, sometimes stand up and get spots in my eyes without freaking out.
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Until i was about 19 i was fine, physically active, happy as can be and a little crazy when it came to having fun. One night just sitting around my heart started racing and of course i thought i was dying. i didnt die but the panic attacks took over at that point. When they started that day they probably continued non stop for at least a month and not as often pretty much up until a few years ago. Mind you that same night i went to the hospital and had an EKG done. good to go. a few months later i was at work sippin on some coffee. all of a sudden i got like a piece of plastic film in my eye type situation. closed one eye it was there, closed the other it was there. i raced home layed down and got the worst headache of my life. went and saw a doc, just migraines. good to go. So i battled panic attacks for a while blah blah. Then a few years ago i bought a motorcycle. Riding one day i started noticing the VS on the blue/white sky. didnt mind it at first. meanwhile still dealing with a few panic attacks here and there. A few months later it really started to bug me. thought i;d give it more time. also i somehow developed either heart murmurs or palpitations. so that was going on too. tried lots of stuff cutting out coffee, smoking, drinking, excercize, no computers, basically the things i can control. nothing helped. Later the next year me and the girl went to a diff country on a plane. after i got here and woke up i felt like the whole world was on my shoulders and dizzyness like i couldnt believe it. any sort of small space like a fitting room i thought i would drop down. measured my blood pressure like crazy, was high as hell untill i stopped wigging out. still had vs which added to the anxiety. never stopped with the motion sickness or whatever it is while i was there. came back home went to the doctor and got lorazepam for vertigo. good to go. still had vs but cleared up the dizzyness and nausea. 5 months later took another trip on a plane. same crap. except that time i just started drinking heavily when i got there, which helped for just a bit but then made my anxiety even worse. came back home from that trip. a few days and no "vertigo". still have VS. after a few months miraculously my palpitations cleared. by that time i pretty much had my anxiety under control. but the VS was still there. now i just moved and took another flight. got the "vertigo" again. VS out of control. just snow no auras. and i forgot that i did have an aura once about a year ago after some physical activity. no migraine though and no seizure. i did have my back aligned because i guess i had scoleosis or so it was called in another country, when i was 15.

pretty much the point is im so through with this shit. done letting it control my life - and it does at this point. I'm not getting on any meds because i just wont. I figure i'll try the back thing because i did drop my bike a few times(not while riding) and picking up a 450 pound bike might have screwed up my back (bear in mind that i'm about 155 myself)

just wanted to introduce myself, let others compare their symptoms and i'm open to suggestions.
its hard to tell people about this stuff. most people say that "you're just freaking out"
eerily enough my mom just got a slipped disk that is blocking blood flow to her head and she gets vision blackouts and dizzyness and they are working on straightening it. go figure.