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My DR/DP is as follows:

All around me in whatever light conditions (intensified in dim light) are objects (and people) covered in lots of tiny, feint dots but constantly moving like you'd see on a television with bad reception. I wouldn't say my VS was incredibly strong but it's constantly there. Coupled with my uncorrected short sightedness, things don't seem real. My head feels quite light, like I've had a few beers and my memories and thoughts are a million miles away. Almost like they're locked up or concentrated too much on how flawed my vision is. Very frustrating when you feel very dumb although you're quite intelligent.

As everything feels so surreal I get a weird lonely feeling, or the feeling of being a stranger and being trapped. My emotions are badly affected.... one time I can be happy then the next time I can be so incredibly low. It's like my vision or my way of thinking is preventing myself from fully interacting with those around me. I just don't feel real. You get times when you feel so incredibly alive but to me they are very few and far between.

I think the DR and VS are 99% mental. It is possible to notice it less or have your mind taken off it, but it doesn't take much for it to come back like being hit with a tonne of bricks. Maybe a small downer in your life can lead to over emphasising on your VS and really confuse your mind.

It helps having a partner. Having someone who loves you and cares for you and although they may not fully understand they try their hardest. Dealing with this and being single is a real drain. I mean I'm not a bad looking guy, relatively fit & healthy with a decent job (fuck knows how long I'll have it for!!!) but focussing, concentrating and trying to get involved in another relationship is going to be very, very hard. But I feel I need it to keep relatively sane and 'real'.