Does anyone else have a problem with taking things in - like remembering and trying to create new memories of times just gone? Anything I
try to think about which was good takes me back years.
It's really weird to explain. It's like I'm living this life but I'm not. I know it's all to do with the DP/DR but I really am not sure
where to turn at the moment. I keep getting loads of anxiety at the moment and having real identity issues. My eyes are playing a huge part in this also - the
fact they're fuzzy and constantly covered in static.
I sometimes feel like I want to break free from myself and free from my body. Something is holding me back, like I'm cuffed. I feel imprisoned in myself and this life.
I'm not thinking straight - I'm finding it hard to hold thoughts - let alone any remotely positive thoughts. Nothing feels clear in my mind, everything feels very unclear and foggy. I feel as though I need to be spoon-fed my life or have to hold someone's hand to guide me through this maze I seem to be stuck in which is essentially, life, or life as 'I' know it.
My parents go away next week and I'm pretty fucking worried. Generally speaking I love being on my own and having the place to myself, but I'm really worried about it.
What's going on?
