As some of you might know I have chronic daily headaches. Until the topamax took effect, main and side, the headaches had increased in severity from normally 4
to a 6 that escalates to an 8 by the evening. Topamax gave me severe side effects, and the dose was decreased to 25mg. The headaches now completely overshadow
my visual symptoms. The effect topamax had on the headaches is hard to describe. It mostly decreased frequency by maybe 40-60% and the pain by 20-40%. That was
a couple of days after increasing to 50mg, which is also when side effects became easily noticeable. I am under severe back pain because of the topamax now.
Feels like a knife right at my waist. I cant stop moving my legs because it also affects them. My dad is going to call the doctor's office tomorrow. On my
next visit I'm going to try getting a new headache preventer as well as a new stopper. Maybe he can prescribe more midrin, but it doesn't work well if
i take it too often. I'll ask about antidepressants, although he didn't want to give me any last time after diagnosing me with depression. My dad is
also supposed to try to get an earlier psychiatrist appointment.
I feel like I'm totally falling apart. These damn headaches consume me. This is the only place where I can get some understanding from. I'm tired of being told of trying to stay positive and that every has problems and they just have to learn to deal with them. I wish I could just hammer a nail through their skull and ask them to stay positive. Its not only that, the nails keep getting bigger and more painful. I think I'm losing the only friends I have left, which is only two people. As nice as the people are here, I still feel "unwanted" which I tend to a lot nowadays. It's not like its unreasonable, all I do is complain. Well I'm off to another night of restless sleep.
I feel like I'm totally falling apart. These damn headaches consume me. This is the only place where I can get some understanding from. I'm tired of being told of trying to stay positive and that every has problems and they just have to learn to deal with them. I wish I could just hammer a nail through their skull and ask them to stay positive. Its not only that, the nails keep getting bigger and more painful. I think I'm losing the only friends I have left, which is only two people. As nice as the people are here, I still feel "unwanted" which I tend to a lot nowadays. It's not like its unreasonable, all I do is complain. Well I'm off to another night of restless sleep.

